Even though I can’t handle social situations at all… I feel so lonely.
I’ve read that introverted people lose social energy during social situations and then restore it when they are alone but I feel that I have no social energy and I never gain any…
Socialising for me is like trying to use something when the battery is drained and the charging slot is broken.
There’s no energy and it’s impossible to gain any.
I’m glad I found this article.
I told the Dr at the gender clinic about having weekly cbt sessions.
He asked if they work and I said I don’t think so… and he agreed. He’s the person who wrote the letter suggesting I have it =|
Because of this I did not go to the cbt this week
They left me a phone message telling me to call them but using the phone is so difficult for me and I have no idea what I’m supposed to say.
I really don’t know what to do. I don’t think I can face anymore of those sessions now that it has been agreed that they are useless.
Results of the GIC appointment… to get surgery I need an appointment with a different doctor for a second opinion, just like before I got estrogen… The appointment for that is next May. They said that the waiting time for surgery is a year, although it could go down because a new surgeon is being trained… that would be a year from may.
It seems like it will be at least 2015 before I get SRS V_V
I also get anxious about wearing clothes I’m not used to going out in so I actually just wear the exact same clothes every day.
I really love winter clothing … especially jumpers/sweaters… but I can never get them because even if I had money, anxiety stops me from going into those shops and I’ve got no one to take me in to them so I can’t do it and it just makes me feel sad =(
This should be about SRS and getting my gender legally changed…
I’m scared because it seems they expect patients to have an active social life, and employment… and stuff? It’s supposed to be to prove that they’re succeeding in their gender identity … It’s stupid. I’ve been living as female for two years. It is my gender. I don’t need to prove anything about it. SRS can only have a positive effect on me - I need my body to fit my mind as best as it can. My social issues are not related to my gender identity and anyway, I’ve been going to a psychologist (even though it is useless) and the autism meetings to try to improve socially. I have been trying to do something.
Perhaps I should write stuff from this post to give to them…